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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

the story of him and her and it

it's finally over. as in resolved. everything's good as new. they've fallen back in love with one another all over again. no more running away for him. running away from her problems. no more quarelling, or any talk of breaking up. they're in love again. and as the world spins by, they continue living in their own reality and world. living off each other. loving each other more.

but just when he thought it had all blown over, doubt is casted again in his mind. that little seed of growth that takes over his mind. casting suspicion and uncertainty. her and what she loves doing. as much as she assures him that she loves him, that when she's doing what she loves it will not be at the expense of them, or the love they share. he still worries. he knows what she's done before when she's doing it. he knows it doesn't involve any feelings. he knows she loves him and that she promised no more of such nonsense. he still worries. what does he do. he trusts her so much. he's given his whole being to trust her. yet it's just this little nagging feeling he has at the back of his mind. that uncertainty. that's the word. uncertainty. uncertain of himself. the fear of losing her to someone better than him. he knows she loves him, but the uncertainty of the future, or what it may hold for her. he's doomed to fail. is he wrong? to be uncertain? to fear?

she loves doing it. she knows he's uneasy about her doing it. he tells her it's ok, that she should go on doing it without him. she questions, he allays her doubts. he worries still, but keeps mum. she goes. he worries the moment he leaves her side. she tells him she misses him already. he misses her terribly too. his heart aches. he tells her to enjoy herself. he worries. he imagines the worst alone. he chides himself for such thoughts, telling himself she loves him, and her promises. he still worries.

he's a fool. an ass. he's in love with her. she who causes his heart to yearn and ache. he who's scared. and uncertain.

the story of him and her and it-- credit to ranon.

Dropped in at
7:00 PM

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